There is a baby for whom we buy formula and medicine. Some people have said we are being used. Maybe they are just jealous…or maybe we are being used.
Does it matter? Yes, I think as I lay in my bed unable to sleep. How could she?
And then God ever so gently knocks me off my high horse with two simple questions.
“Maureen, have you ever used someone to get what you wanted?” “Have you ever manipulated a situation to get what you needed?”
I am silent.
Then I hear Him say,
“Whose money do you use to buy the formula?” “And what if the mother in the cornstalk house with no money IS using you for formula and medicine?” “Does it matter?” “Is the baby getting healthier?” “Does visiting her give you an opportunity to talk about Me?”
In Christ, I surrender my rights.
As soon as I think I know what someone needs, outside of Jesus, I am the one in need.
As soon as I get to choose whom I serve and whom I don’t serve, I am no longer serving.
As soon as I think I have something to offer, I have nothing.
So, I hope she is using me for all that Jesus can give her and I hope I never stop giving her Jesus.
You really need a kleenex alert at the beginning of this. Loved seeing your heart in these words!
Thanks, Kelli.
This reminds me of the homeless in Chicago begging for money for food. I used to be hesitant about giving them money. Then one day it dawned on me – when Jesus said, “Feed my sheep” he didn’t say, “Feed only the sheep that are NOT doing drugs or drinking alcohol.” He said, “Feed my sheep.” That was a huge moment for me.